It Sucked, But I Didn’t Give Up

Yesterday I tried this relatively new workout.  There are several names for it, but suffice it to say, it was water aerobics on mats on the water.  (see photo below) Matt and I went to the new rec center to swim laps when we saw this fitness class about to begin on the other side …

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I Remember Columbine

I was in kindergarten, but I still knew enough to know that something wasn't right.  My mom wept watching the tv and I didn't understand but there was a feeling of solemnity that couldn't be shaken. The Columbine High School Massacre, as it's now known, occurred in 1999. I've read several books on different accounts …

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The Thing No One Tells You About Cancer

No one tells you what it's really like.  They don't tell you that it's going to change your life forever.  Instead, they offer positive albeit transparent quips about how we are going to take things one day at a time. I talked about how my mom and I knew it was cancer in my post, My …

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A Dull Roar

I had an anxiety attack last night. My muscles spasmed and my chest hurt.  If I didn't know any better I'd think I was having a heart attack.  I couldn't breathe and I couldn't stop crying.  Everything irritated me: my body, my bed, the temperature of the room.  I clenched my jaw so hard that …

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Cancer: Season Finale

Last night, BA took his final dose of Chemo (hopefully) ever.  He made it through nearly six months of neuropathy in his feet and hands, total body muscle spasms, and the inability to drink water (or anything, really) unless it was warm, because anything remotely cool would cause his throat to close up and feel …

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